I saw their happy faces. Familiar faces they were. It seemed that they were living in the moment, in that particular moment..not caring for a single thought about the day after or the years after.
Then what is it that I fear, I asked myself. It was rather a mixed feeling. Insecurity. Uncertainty. Maybe it was the fear of change.
I suddenly start recollecting the childhood memories (though I don’t have any special stories to be told but still.. ), I felt as if I had experienced my past in a split-second.
” Hey. What Happened? ”
“Ohh. Nothing. The food here is so good than ours. ” I replied.
And there was I able to draw the conclusion. There were chances I was afraid to take. Situations in which I didn’t believe myself. Things I wanted to share with people but didn’t. People I was afraid to talk to (or didn’t want to 😛 ) and so much more.
Fear of the Unknown, it was I guess.
I think the ‘what if’ game starts whenever we are to take any decision.
- What if I fail?
- What if I loose it?
- What if it gets worse?
The biggest culprit is doubt.
But now I know, there are not good or bad decisions. Just learning experiences. Experiences that help you live and see life in a matured way. But is it too late to change? Maybe not. Throughout these years, I have just been able to build walls instead of bridges.
And should I expect something spectacular to happen?
Not at all. I don’t even deserve to.
So I ask myself . Are you afraid of changes?
A little. Of course.
Maybe all I needed was someone who could believe in me. Someone who could assure me in the times I doubted myself. All I had was me.
We need people in our lives with whom we can be as open as possible. To have real conversation with people may seem like such a simple, obvious suggestion, but it involves courage and risk. – Thomas Moore
All I have is me. But life moves on, even if you don’t.
Times change, People change, Situations change, Relationships change. The only thing constant is Change.